Dying to be me! Anita Moorjani at TEDxBayArea

Dying to be me! Anita Moorjani at TEDxBayArea

Doctors had given Anita Moorjani just hours to live when she arrived at the hospital in a coma on the morning of February 2nd, 2006. Unable to move as a result of the cancer that had ravaged her body for almost four years, Anita entered another dimension, where she experienced great clarity and understanding of her life and purpose here on earth. She was given a choice of whether to return to life or not, and chose to return to life when she realized that “heaven” is a state and not a place. This subsequently resulted in a remarkable and complete recovery of her health. Anita’s riveting talk will inspire you to transform your life by living more authentically, discovering your greatest passions, transcending your deepest fears, and living from a place of pure joy. Her true story will radically alter your current beliefs about yourself, your purpose on earth, your health, your relationships, and your life!

About our speaker.


Anita Moorjani has become something of an international sensation since her book “Dying to be Me” hit the New York Times bestsellers list only two weeks after its release in March, 2012. She had experienced what most people never have; she “crossed over,” and came back to share what she learned. Her remarkable NDE (Near-death experience) and subsequent healing from end-stage cancer is one of the most amazing cases ever recorded. Doctors had given her mere hours to live when she arrived at the hospital in a coma on the morning of February 2, 2006. Unable to move, and in a deep coma as the result of the cancer that had ravaged her body for nearly four years, Anita entered another dimension, where she experienced great clarity and understanding of her life and purpose here on earth, and was given a choice of whether to return to life or continue on into death. Anita chose to return to life when she realized that “heaven” is a state, not a place. This subsequently resulted in a remarkable and complete recovery of her health within days of her return.

Born in Singapore of Indian parents, Anita has lived in Hong Kong most of her life. She is multi-lingual, and from the age of two, grew up speaking English, Cantonese, and an Indian dialect simultaneously. She had been working in the corporate field for several years before her cancer diagnosis in 2002.

She is the embodiment of the truth that we all have the inner power and wisdom to overcome even life’s most adverse situations, as she is the living proof of this possibility.

World-renowned author, Dr. Wayne Dyer has been instrumental in bringing Anita’s story to public attention, and wrote the foreword to her book. He subsequently invited her to appear on his TV special, “Wishes Fulfilled”, which airs frequently on PBS.

Following the global success of her book, which is being translated and published into 34 different languages, Anita has regularly been interviewed on various prime time television shows around the world, including three times on “Fox News” in New York, “The Jeff Probst Show” in Hollywood, cable TV’s “National Geographic International”, “The Pearl Report” in Hong Kong, “HeadStart” with Karen Davila in the Philippines, CNN documentary in production, among many others.

She inspires her audience to transform their lives by living more authentically, discovering their greatest passions, transcending their deepest fears, and living from a place of pure joy, and has the ability to explain such mind-bending concepts as timelessness, non-duality, and simultaneous realities, in such simplified terms that everyone can understand.

Anita is currently one of the most sought after inspirational speakers in the world and addresses sell out audiences all over the globe.


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Translator: Delia Bogdan
Reviewer: Denise RQ It's such a thrill for me to be here. And I'm so happy to see all of you. You know, one of the biggest reasons
that I'm happy to be here is because I shouldn't be alive today. I should have died
on February, 2, 2006. That was supposed to be
my last day here, in this physical life, because on that day, the doctors
had told my husband and my family that I only had a few more hours to live. I was dying from N-stage lymphoma, which is a form of cancer
of the lymph nodes. I had struggled with cancer
for four years up to that point. For four years, this disease
had devoured my body. It had traveled
through my lymphatic system. It started with a lump in my neck, and then, it spread
throughout my lymphatic system and by that point,
by the end of four years, I had tumors,
some of them the size of lemons that had spread from the base of my skull all around my neck, down into my chest, under my arms,
and all the way to my abdomen. By that point also,
even before I had gone into the coma, my lungs had been filled with fluid, and every time I would lay down, I would choke on my own fluid. My muscles had completely deteriorated so I weight about 85 pounds. I looked like just a skeleton
with skin on. I had these big gaping-opened skin lesions where the toxins
were oozing out of my body. I wasn't able to digest any food. I had a persistent low grade fever, I couldn't walk,
because my muscles had been deteriorated, so I was constantly just lying down
or been taken around in a wheel chair. I was connected
to an oxygen tank all the time. I couldn't breathe
without the aid of oxygen. And on that morning, on February, 2, 2006, I went into a coma. The doctors had said
these were my final hours because now my organs had shut down, my organs were failing; so my family were told that if there was
anybody that had to see me before I died, this was the time. Unbeknownst to everyone around me though, even though it appeared
that I was in a coma, and my eyes were closed, I was aware
of everything that was going on all around me. I was aware of my husband
who was distressed, but he was by my side holding my hand. I was aware of everything
the doctors were doing: they were putting tubes in me, they were removing fluid from my lungs
so that I could breathe easier. I was aware of every single thing
that was happening. It felt as though I had
a 360-degree peripheral vision. I could see everything happening
all around my body. But not just in the room
where my body was, but even beyond. And it was as if I had expanded
out of my body. I was aware of my physical body, I could see it, lying there
on that hospital bed, but I was no longer attached to that body. It felt as though I could be everywhere
at the same time. It was like wherever I put
my awareness, there I was. I was aware of my brother,
who was in India. My body, I was in Hong Kong. This was happening to me in Hong Kong. My brother was in India and was rushing to get on a plane
to come and see me. He wanted to see me
before I took my last breath. And I was aware of that. I felt as though I was with him.
I saw him on the plane. And then I also became aware
of my father and my best friend, both of whom I had lost. Both of them had crossed over, had died. But I became aware
of their presence with me, as though they were guiding me
and communicating with me. One thing that I felt
in this amazing expansive state, I felt I was in like a realm of clarity,
where I understood everything. I understood why I had cancer. I understood that I was much greater, in fact all of us are much greater
and more powerful than we realize when we're in our physical bodies. I also felt as if I was connected
to everybody, like all the doctors
that were treating me, the nurses, my husband, my mother, my brother, and everybody, I felt as though
we all shared the same consciousness. I felt as though I could feel
what they were feeling, I could feel the distress
they were feeling, I could feel
the resignation of the doctors. But at the same time, I didn't get
emotionally sucked into the drama, but yet, I understood
what they were feeling. It's like we all share
the same consciousness, it's like when we're not expressing
in our physical bodies, you, and I, and all of us, we're all
expressions of the same consciousness. That's what it felt like. I felt as though my father
was trying to communicate with me that it wasn't my time,
that I needed to go back into my body. At first, I didn't want to go back, because I still felt
as though I had a choice, weather to come back or not. So at first, I absolutely did not want
to go back into my body because I couldn't see
a single good reason to go back into this sick and dying body. I was a burden on my family,
I was suffering, there was no good reason. So I didn't want to go back. But in the next instant,
it felt as if I completely understood that now that I knew what I knew, and because I understood
what caused the cancer, I knew that if I chose
to go back to my body, my body would heal very, very quickly. And so, in that moment, I made the decision to go back, and I heard as though my father
and my best friend said to me, "Now that you know the truth
of who you really are, go back and live your life fearlessly." And it was in those moments
that I woke up from the coma. And my family was so relieved to see me. And the doctors, they couldn't explain it. The doctors were there,
and they were surprised, but they were being very, very cautious, because there was no way
of knowing; I was still so weak. There was no way for anyone to know weather I was going to stay out
of the coma, or heal, or go back. But I knew I was going to be fine,
and I was telling my whole family, "I'm going to be fine, I know
I'm going to be fine. It's not my time." Within five days, the tumors
in my body had shrunk by 70%. After five weeks, I was released
from the hospital to go home. I was completely cancer free. Now, what has happened is that I've had to pick up
my life from that point, and as you can imagine, my life feels completely different. It changed my view of the world. That experience changed my view
of our physical bodies, of my physical body, of illness,
and how I perceive the world. I found it very difficult
to integrate back into life again, after that experience. And the best way I can think of
to explain what it feels like would be to use metaphors. And a metaphor that I like to use
is one of a warehouse. I'd like you to imagine, if you will, we are in a totally darkened warehouse that's pitch black. Just imagine that right now, you're in a warehouse
that's completely pitch black, and you can't see anything
because it's so dark. You can't see anything
in front of you, anywhere. But imagine that in your hand,
you hold a little flashlight. Just a little flashlight. And you switch on that flashlight, and with that flashlight,
you navigate your way through the dark. And you use just the beam
of that little flashlight to navigate your way in the dark. And everything that you see
in the warehouse is only what you can see
with the beam of that flashlight. Now imagine
if the beam is shining over there, all you see is what's over there. Everything else is in darkness. You shine the beam over there,
and all you see is that spot there. Everything else is in darkness
except for the light of the beam. Now imagine one day big floodlights go on so the whole warehouse is illuminated, and you realize this warehouse is huge. It's bigger
than you've ever imagined it to be. And it's lined with shelves,
and shelves, and shelves of all kinds of different things. Every kind of thing you can imagine,
and things you can't even imagine, all exist on these shelves,
side by side by side. Some of these things are beautiful,
some not so beautiful, some large, some small, some things in colors
you've never ever seen before, colors you've never imagined to exist, and some things
that are strange and funny looking, all exist side by side, and you've seen some of them before
with your flashlight, but many of them
you've never seen before because your flashlight
had never shone on them. Now imagine
if the lights go back off again, and you're back to one flashlight. Now, even though all of you can see
is what you see with the one flashlight, the beam of one flashlight, at least you now know there is so much more that exists simultaneously and alongside
the things that you can't see. You now know
that just because you cannot see them, you cannot experience it,
doesn't mean it doesn't exist. You now know that
because you've had that experience. That's what it feels like to me. It feels like so much more exists
than what we believe, so much more exists
than what we have experienced. It's just beyond our flashlight. And just to help you understand that
a little bit better, I'd like to try a little game,
a little experiment with you. I want you to look around the room
and find everything you can that is shades of red,
everything from red to burgundy. Just look around
and commit it to your memory. As many as possible.
Commit it to your memory. Because I'm going to ask you to recall it. OK. Close your eyes, face to front. Now how many things can you recall
that are blue in color? (Laughter) Almost none. Think about it, almost none. Open your eyes and look around. See how many blue things there were
that exist alongside the red, but you didn't even notice it,
you didn't see it. Why? Because you weren't aware of it. The beam of that flashlight, what is that? That is your awareness. That beam is your awareness. When you flash
your awareness on something, it becomes your reality,
it becomes what you experience. There can be something else
that's right under your nose, but if your flashlight
is not shining on it, you won't even notice it;
you won't even be aware of it. Think about this, think about all the billions of dollars
we're spending on cancer awareness. Think about
all the cancer awareness campaigns. Imagine if we put that much money,
energy, and effort into wellness awareness what a different world we would have. Imagine if we put
all our effort into peace instead in into fighting and wars. We would have a very different world
if we changed our awareness. To bring it down
onto a more personal level, I want to share with you
the five biggest lessons I learned from this experience. Number one, the most important thing
that I learned, the most important thing we have here,
to focus our awareness on, is love. That is number one. And when I say love,
it's very easy to say, or for us to say, "We need to love other people." But one of the things I learned
is that one of the reasons I got cancer is because I didn't love myself. That's hugely important. When we love ourselves,
we value ourselves. When we value ourselves,
we teach people how to treat us. When you love yourself, you find no need
to control or bully other people nor do you allow other people
to control or bully you. So loving yourself is as important
as loving everybody else. And the more you love yourself, the more love you have
to give other people. Number two,
the next biggest lesson I learned, was to live life fearlessly. Most of us are brought up
on a diet of fear. We're taught to fear everything. I used to fear everything,
I used to fear cancer, I used to fear eating the wrong foods, I used to fear displeasing people. I feared just about everything.
I feared failing, and most of us are brought up
fearing everything. And people think that fear keeps you safe;
that's actually not true. Love keeps you safe. When you love yourself,
and when you love other people, you make sure that you keep yourself safe and that you keep other people
out of danger's way. Love keeps you much safer than fear does. The third thing I learned
that is so important is humor, and laughter, and joy. We're born knowing this stuff. We're born knowing
that it's important to laugh because that's what kids do all the time. We're born knowing love and fearlessness, but it gets conditioned
out of us as we grow up. Laughter is so important, and humor,
and finding your joy in life. It's more important than any other
spiritual activity that you can think of. If we had more laughter, in fact,
if even our politicians learn to laugh, we'd have a very different world. And if we had more laughter,
you'd have less people with illness, you'd need less hospitals,
and you'd need less prisons as well. The fourth thing I learned
is that life is a gift. It really is. Most of us live our lives
as though life is a chore, but it shouldn't be that way. And it's unfortunate that only when we loose
something that we value do we really realize the true value of it. And it took me losing my life
to realize the value of my life. And I don't want other people
to make the same mistake which is why I'm standing here
sharing my message. Because I don't want
people to realize when it's too late the value of their life. And your life is a gift. Even the challenges
that come to you are a gift. When I had cancer, that was the biggest challenge
I could ever have, but today when I look back on it, I feel it's the biggest gift
I could have had. People think that the cancer, or even I thought,
the cancer was killing me, but actually I was killing myself
before I got cancer. The cancer saved my life. All your challenges are gifts. In the end, you will always find
that your challenges are a gift. And if you're really challenged,
and it doesn't feel like a gift yet, it means you haven't got to the end yet. The fifth and final thing
which is so important that I learned is that the most important thing for you
is to always be yourself. Be as you as you can be. Shine your light as brightly as you can. Embrace your uniqueness. Just realize who you are,
get to know who you are, love yourself unconditionally,
and just be yourself. And with those five things, I invite you to go
and live your life fearlessly. Thank you very much. (Applause)


  1. I agree with most of your wonderful experience except you said the cancer saved your life wrong the cancer was killing you like it does millions on this earth God gave you an experience that's saved your life the cancer didn't save your life yes because of the cancer you had the experience but it was God who healed you

  2. wow so profound- imagine if we spent all the $ and effort the society spends on cancer awareness on wellness awareness instead! what amazing things we could do as a society?

  3. Much respect to this wonderfull woman and teacher it is just amazing what became of her thin dying sick body to a full and attractive healthy big body her husband has it all

  4. Athiests and obnoxious skeptics have very little to offer to dispute Near Death Experiences. They deny the REALITY of the multitude of correlating accounts as well as real-world studies/investigations done on camera (patients being able to recall events in the Operating Room when their faces are fully covered) by grasping at THEIR own imaginations with the use of ambiguous and highly limited understanding of "oxygen deficiency to the brain". There are also free divers who can hold their breath for 10 minutes plus, which is far longer than what your medical science says the brain can survive without oxygen.
    Wim Hoff can tell you just how limited the so-called "modern medical science" understanding is of what oxygen deficiency does to the mind and body. Better yet, he proves the limitations of your collective understanding by being able to control his own body temperature while submerged in subzero ice cold water for 2 hours (he also climbed Mt. Everest with shorts on and did a marathon in the desert without water) and not get sick after being injected with a virus during many of scientific trials. Just by his breathing techniques.

    My point being, if men like Wim Hoff can flip the book of medical science on its head with regards to what is not only possible, but REAL. So it's rather ironic that their narrative is trying to flip it around as if those who went through NDE and the ones who are amazed by the evidences we see are the ones in denial of reality…

  5. 5 lessons from Anita
    1) Love yourself that will allow to love others.
    2) Fearless – live fearless life. As we have taught to fear everything. Fear does not keep you safe but love does.
    3) Humor,Laughter and joy – make more laughter out of life. Finding your joy in life is so important than any
    4) life is gift, Challenges are gifts , if you have a challenge and you don't feel like a gift that means you have not reach to the end.
    5) Be yourself – that is way to live a healthy life.

  6. Thank you Anita for an honest truthful and inspiring talk. Your healing from cancer was a miracle and your experience meeting others who have gone to the other side is very believable. You have helped strengthen my faith and helped me live life without fear and with more joy.

  7. Great storytelling but sorry not possible. Brain hallucinations happen as a result of lack of oxygen. Death is a nothingness. Most people report who come back have no recollection of any experience. These people fabricate these experiences or try to make sense of their lives.

  8. My father was in a coma and the Dr. Wanted to take him off life support.

    I was fighting with the Dr. Threatening to sue the hospital because they had not determined the cause of the coma.

    My father recovered and said he could here me fighting and crying and it gave him strength to fight.

    He lived over 5 years and died at 83.

    The will to live is powerful. I wish I knew of Dr Bruce Lipton long ago and I try to teach his thinking to my mom that is 93 and cares for her self and lives alone still. She believes that she is fine and thinks god will tell her when it’s time. When she is stressed she prays to god.

    I think I’m going to live to 300 and believe it’s possible. I’m 59 and look early 40 and feel great. I do not see doctors but have a natural path/ nutritionist for food advice.

    I can honestly say Dr Bruce Lipton is bang on. Because we are part of the cosmos every event is a good event. I had a car accident and was thankful the cosmos stoped me from going further cz I probably would have died a few blocks away! That my mind set. I have been programming my brain for 40 years to accept things we have no control of and don’t be stressed because it’s destiny. I try to make a person smile every day.

    We have the power and I believe it’s in our body an image of gods body.

    Believe in yourself

  9. Just like Anita I learned that the greatest things I had to learn was to be happy in my own skin, to love ❤️ myself just as I am and then I can be so joyful and full of laughter to give to everyone else. Joy Heals. Thanks Anita I read your book years ago plus The Secret Power and all of Wayne Dyers books on my journey with A Course in Miracles. My life is a Joy. 🙏 Thanks 🙏👍👏

  10. Actually, there's a lot of Anita in the world out there… Any cancer doctor have witnessed AT LEAST ONE miracle in their career. But they keep their mouth shut ! It's a worldwide consensus…
    Knowing that 97% of them wouldn't take for themselves the cancer treatment they offer to theirs patients, the big question is then : why on earth do they persever in 'slow killing' the death-fearfuled population ?
    Because they are affraid of being rejected by their pair ? Because they are affraid of loosing all they have preciously gathered ? Because they are affraid of recognising they are lying to themselves daily ?
    Yes, definitely, we are fed by fear since we are born… And yes, fear is not a wise counsellor: it doesn't protect us (collectively and individualy) !
    So, let's start together a new civilisation based on love, joy, connexion, compassion and cooperation.
    Go on, Anita, spread your message with love and boldness. We love you !

  11. She never talks about what she learned in the afterlife that healed her. You have to buy the book to find out. She’s all about. New Age BS ME-ism, the “we are God” (Luciferianism lies) so IMHO she learned nothing.

  12. That was actually the 4th dimension look like. You can see 360° . We 3d we see 2d but 4ds see 3ds, 360 angle. You can see yourself above yourself but not upwards but entirely different direction.

  13. my dear moorjani you expressed your experience so profoundly with such Grace and love. you have been deeply blessed. the one thing we all have in common we truly are brothers and sisters all knit together by our great creator who holds us in his hands and he decides how we will use our purpose in life. God already had a plan and the purpose for the rest of your life to share your experience and how to teach others who desire to live in the life we live now. there is much greater reason God brought you back the one essence is to give the life God gave you to edify him for giving you your life back he is the one who is control of Our Lives. he decides whether we live or die but we never die we continue to live if not in this life but in the next Which is far greater than this life. the preparation of our continuance in this life is not about ourselves it is about what's to come after we leave this life and how we treat other people as Jesus said love one another as I love you the only way to the father is love and Jesus the mediator between God and man is the only way connected to our higher power. He decides how we lived our life and our purpose which will continue after this life and how we lived in this life. If we have wasted our life doing nothing and being not aware of the things surrounding us and not being aware of people suffering and doing nothing about it and living on selfishness and greed finding pleasure in the things of life seen and unseen until the day comes when we are on our back lying in the hospital knowing this is the final end what will we be thinking about fear possibly simply because what has that person accomplished. yes God gives us Second Chances and he wants us to use it for his purpose not our own purpose. it is not about self I mean world it's become. it is Self Indulgence which is not your purpose. it is for all of us to join together in one Accord and yes all the things you expressed R-Truth and loving one another for love is the essence of healing which gives love through the power of the Holy Spirit that intertwines your whole being through God Almighty who created you and I. he is the one that has the world in his hands. without him, you're nothing but an empty vessel going nowhere. God has given you a second chance because he is waiting for you to express his love for you and for all those who need to know our purpose in this life given a second chance is the gift you must use to edify his glory in our lives so his glory can shine out to those who need him, we all need him. for those who do not believe they are like weeds growing in the Wayside. but those who have experienced the truth will grow and flourish like a rose or the most beautiful flower in Paradise. the clock is ticking in our hearts and when that time comes and we cross over the big question will be what have we done in this life to glorify God? God looks into our hearts and he knows exactly where you've been and what you have done. but he looks into your hearts and he will find those places of your life where are you did something from your heart that was beautiful in his presence. it may have been just an act of kindness or saving someone from a life-threatening injury, or just finding your little corner to speak to God and say thank you forgiving me a second chance in this life and now I am going to use it for your purpose to share to the world that we all need to believe all things a possible through Christ mediator between God and man. when you receive him into your heart it will change everything beyond the scope into your entire life and Beyond. thank you for sharing your experiences but I feel God has touched you and want you to express the real reason why you came back. and now you express it and now we must Express the love of God it's the only way the world can grow and love one another and when we do this God will have a special place to those who believe in his kingdom.

  14. Muito bom seu testemunho, estou ouvindo agora 5/5/2019
    Fui curada tb de um câncer e não morri pq Jesus falou q eu não iria morrer, ele iria me curar !! Hoje faz 5 anos que fui curada e tive uma EQM tb mais domingo e meu corpo saiu e foi para outra dimensão em um mar 🌊 o tempo está cinza a areia molhada e o céu 🌌 estava de bronze, vi quando eu estava me afogando e gritava a Jesus pra me ajudar estava dentro do mar, pq apareci dentro dele de repente !!
    Aí vi um homem de branco com essas roupas de sacerdotes de Israel 🇮🇱 branca e vi o rosto dele, ouvi sua voz mais não abriu a sua boca, e simplesmente ouvi …
    Eu tb não abria a boca pra falar c ele, mais nos comunicamos um com o outro e nos entendemos só por pensamentos ou telepatias incrível !!
    E ele me falou assim: não vais morre, calma só falta 3 …
    E só faltava 3 quimio pra terminar mais parecia uma eternidade 6 ciclo de quimio de 21 em 21 dia, muito mais muito enjoou e vômito 🤢 é muita dor no corpo, muito cansado, muito ruim… não gosto nem de lembrar os sintomas da medicação !!
    Meu filho me dava banho 🧼 ficava deitada direto pq ficava sem ar … ao andar …
    Cabelos todos caíram …
    Sabe, mais descobri q a vida é um presente 🎁 de Deus, e nem todos podem ter, querem mais morrem, então .
    Ele me disse só falta 3 e falou aguenta firme eu estou do seu lado.
    E colocou algo sólido pra eu segurar em alto mar 🌊 pá eu estava me afogando, de repente ele me olhou e falou te levarei pra depois das ondas do mar e tu caminharas sobre as águas !! Foi lindo de ver ele me chamou filha !! Jesus me chamou de filha minha !! 🌊🌊🇧🇷🇧🇷👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🙏🙏🥺🥺🎂🍾🥂
    A ciência e os médicos tentam explicar Deus ou Jesus quem ele querem mais não se explica isso!! Milagre não se explica pq não tem explicação…
    Milagre se vive não se explica !! 🥰😍😘❤️

  15. I have heard of these ndes but if u have a choice then why do more people not get this choice. Like When's it's not other peoples time? There is alot to be answered here. Also when someone is in a coma they do say they are aware to a certain extent cause they say talk to them. That maybe where she gets this from.

  16. Reading below makes me bit disturbed. She was under treatment for 4 years and her GP never tried the alternative treatment on her knowing the fact that her cancer was spreading and now she was close to death.
    Once she starts to heal after her experience then everyone comes forward to take credit.
    5 weeks to be free from this desease spells out that something from another unknown dimension helped her.
    Sceince does not accept it but how can she know what the doctors were talking when she was in a Coma.
    To believe or not believe is our perception.
    To say that the other is wrong is incorrect

  17. 5つの気づき
    5.いつでも自分らしくいること 自分の光をできるだけ輝かせる

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